You have to be enough on your own.

The basic truth is that I. Love. My. Girls.

So everything I'm about to say is with the background fact that my girls are my everything, and it's not said in anger... it just... is.

I just learned that there's definitely a screwed up perception of dating by single Mormons...

Apparently if you go on one date with someone that takes you off the market for everyone else. This causes guys to not ask girls out because they don't want to sacrifice their chances with every other girl by going on a date with one girl.

So basically, guys don't ask girls on dates because then they can't date.

Confusing? Yes.

A waste of my time? Definitely yes.

I've been thinking a lot about if my "single life" is worth the time, and if maybe I should cut back on the time I spend in my "single life". And now that I know how dating goes in this Texas Mormon world, I'm definitely pushed me in the direction to cut back on the time spent in my "single life".

I love my single friends and I'd do anything for them, but I think I may have to wait out this single-mom-ness alone at home.

My girls will be mine forever. That's the only constant.

So I'm going to slow down this feverish pace I've been keeping to try to go to all the singles things.

I'll still go. But less.

I'm just grateful to have an answer as of where I should be placing my time. It's definitely a relief.

Will I never remarry? Maybe. And if not, I know that I can be happy single.

If you can't be completely happy in your single life, you'll never be completely happy in a married life. You have to be enough on your own.